“I can’t let go!”
“I will be there for you”
“It’s my backup . . . if I let go I will have nothing . . . “
“If you let go you will hold on to me.”
“I know that . . .I just want to hang on to this, too.”
“Tell me about your Daddy.”
“What? umm, He was special. He loved me. He was always there for me. I felt safe when he was there, I knew he would do anything to protect me.”
“Did you have what you needed, food, clothes, home, warmth in cold weather, cool in summer?”
“Daddy made sure I was taken care of, he wanted to do so much more, but I was never without. I knew he loved me and his just being there was enough. I knew if I needed something, he would do his utmost to provide.”
“You said your daddy loved you, so do I – unconditionally, faithfully, eternally.”
“I know, thank you”
“You said your daddy provided for you, so do I – I promise to meet your needs, I always keep my promises. I love to surprise you with special gifts you don't expect – like last week”
“You did surprise me, thank you, again!”
“You said your daddy made you feel safe and that he would do anything to protect you.”
“Yes, my daddy loved me . . .”
“I love you . . .I died for you so that you would be eternally protected by me . . .”
“Father?”
“yes, my dear one”
“I am so sorry. (tears flowing now – sobbing) Here, you take this . . . I asked you to show me a deeper relationship with you and I see now this was in the way. I can’t hang on to this and you. . . I am still afraid.”
“I have you, dear one. My arms are holding you and I never get tired of holding you. You are precious to me. I will never let you go. Disappointment, loss, hurt, worry – these will all come again and again, but I am holding you. Keep giving them all to me - trusting me. I am growing you into the chosen, holy, dearly loved mature child of God I already see. I am pleased with you, you make me sing with joy. You are mine!”
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